down!!!!!!!

tired!!!!! down!!!!!! ya Allah...besar dugaanMu...ak redha ya Allah...
but feel too sad n guilty when i think about my family...my parent want me to finish my study...at least i'll grad this coming oct...but...i afraid i can't....

feel dizzy when dr.a option different with dr H option...and when i compare between dr a n dr h, i think dr h more logical wawaaa....so i dunt know, i should stay with my research now or i should change it...maybe not totally change, but poor fizah, maybe she should change a lot...

honestly, im too tired, too lazy to open journal....ya Allah, where should i find my spirit...person who always give a support to me already gone....slowly disappear from my life...sad....only Allah know how i feel it...

besides that, i have too many invitation for this month....my friend wedding...yus wawaaaa....eti, pregnant already...me???? what i have??? sabar za, Allah tgh mengujiku, dan ak pasti janji Allah benar...InsyaAllah akn ada sinar bahagia buat diriku, ameen...