susahnya la haiiiii....

susahnyyaaaa............penat jg bila suatu perbincangan itu dlm stress n always her right...plz, no body perfect, me, n u also, so we need to learn from our mistakes...

plz... too tired...

i'm the person who will let u win, if u want always win, for sure you can...coz, when i already explain to u n u dont want to take it...n u still want to proof that u rite...ok fine, take it!!! lalalalaa....

just... sometimes feel too tired...to heard, n plz dont wish for my opinions anymore la!!!! dushhh....

lallaalala... i just want to be myself...me? akula hehehe....

aku yg kejam huhulalala... ) =

down!!!!!!!

tired!!!!! down!!!!!! ya Allah...besar dugaanMu...ak redha ya Allah...
but feel too sad n guilty when i think about my family...my parent want me to finish my study...at least i'll grad this coming oct...but...i afraid i can't....

feel dizzy when dr.a option different with dr H option...and when i compare between dr a n dr h, i think dr h more logical wawaaa....so i dunt know, i should stay with my research now or i should change it...maybe not totally change, but poor fizah, maybe she should change a lot...

honestly, im too tired, too lazy to open journal....ya Allah, where should i find my spirit...person who always give a support to me already gone....slowly disappear from my life...sad....only Allah know how i feel it...

besides that, i have too many invitation for this month....my friend wedding...yus wawaaaa....eti, pregnant already...me???? what i have??? sabar za, Allah tgh mengujiku, dan ak pasti janji Allah benar...InsyaAllah akn ada sinar bahagia buat diriku, ameen...

blur lalalaaa

penangan berchoty almost 2 months, sume jdi blur, nk wat thesis pn xthu mana nk start, scroll mouse up n down, up n down hursshhh...not abot thesis only, everything, brg2 kt umah ni, ni y ak ke? ke y zaza or fizah or nora? tu la, lain kali jgn dok berchoty smpai xhengat lgi huhu...


my heart...feel blur wth everything...dunt know this is rite or not...but i know, this is not what i want...

nak seribu daya, xnk sebillion dalih!

sesak nafas ak raya thn ni, al-sebab ak selsema hehe...xceli...pabila 2 killer questions d terjah pda ku uwaaa!!!
1 - bila nk hbs belajar
2 - bila nak kaweennnnn
adooiihhh...tolong, smpai bla bice sal ni, ak y nk mam pn ile selera nk mam...xtertelan lekat kt tekak...
tambah2 g beraya umah sepupu, semua dh ada anak, lagila mak suh cpt2...streeeeeeesssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!


‎~"Allah lah yang memegang hati itu...Andai hati itu terluka, ingatkan ia tentang Penyembuhnya, agar Dia titipkan penawar bisa...Andai hati itu kecewa, ingatkan Dia tentang Pelindungnya, agar Dia usirkan segala duka...Andai hati itu terpalit d0sa, ingatkan Dia tentang Pengampunnya, agar Dia bersihkan debu n0da...Andai hati itu gundah gulana, ingatkan Dia tentang Pentadbirnya, agar Dia hembuskan tenang ke dada.."~


Kadangkala kita senyum sekadar utk menutup luka dihati dan kdgkala kita ketawa hanya utk mengubati kesedihan dlm diri..Adakalanya kita melangkah dgn penuh yakin sedangkn perasaan goyah menunggu rebah..Bila menangis tdk siapa yg tahu..Semuanya demi maruah diri..Walau siapapun kita,dimana kita berada, langit tetap dijunjung,tanah tetap dipijak..Selagi kita hidup,langkah mesti diteruskan..Jgn sesekali kesal dgn nasib diri kerana kita adalah sebahagian dari makhluk Allah yg sdg di uji oleh-NYA..•♥


apa pn, i'll smile always, even my heart....

interbiuw or interbiuw.......

fushhh nervous hanya Allah je y tahu, 1st2 rilex je, xla  nervous sgt, tp bila hmpir pda waktunya fush, butterfly kt dlm ni hummm berdup...dap...dup...dap... adeiihhh...


xceli stdy ak xhbs lgi, tp entah keinginan tuk bekerja ada duit sdri, nk pakai keta, nk bg mak duit jdi inspirasi tuk ak g intervw pagi td 12/07/11, 10am, (tp ak g awal so intervw awl).


sebenarnya ak dlm 50-50, nk keja or not....coz my stdy not finish yet, im scare if i cant bring this together...pe pn tggu result she said around 2 weeks, so just wait jela...but i fell like want to back to my hometown first huhu...


nk g intervw fushhh, 1st naek bus ke lrt, ke masjid jamek, lrt lgi ke kl sentral huhu...1st question she asked me, are u mix? i look u different hehe,haha hampeh dpt dia detect y ak ni mix, yela my nenek cina, masuk islam so mata i sepet la hehe, tp ak berkulit sawo matang coz same like my late father, but my brother putih le,  gelak dia dgr xplaination ak hehe...


dapat ke keja ni?huhu wallahualam, ak xstdy apa pn...g bolasah je huhu...klu dpt rezeki, klu x focus on my study tu je...hbskn cepat2 nk apply job huhu...

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sedih...im too brave to take this high risk?... ='(

one of my inspiration source =)

mak aiihh tajuk omputih tu, biar berterabur pn hihiii...
semalam met ngan doc Amlus setelah berkurun dr kurun 2 masihi enggak jmp hehe...(xjmp since bln 2 )huhu...atut sbnarnya tp Alhamdulillah doc always wth his smile, understand always n never tired give us advice, support us, Alhamdulillah syukur d kurniakn supervisor sebaik n terbaik mcm doc Amlus =)


But the hot topic that i want to share here is, Doc said, the new building at uum, yg sebelah FPAU y pasti bangunan tu baru n design dia mmg cantik, ala2 west pn ada, dlu ak n rumate dok beranganlah InsyaAllah nty ni la our room if we work here, cece berangan itu penting kwang2 hehe...


Nak d jadikn cerita..ce citer...ce citer, doc kta tu new building tuk MOT hah!!!!serentak kami sume, n doc kta hbskn master cepat2 nty apply PHD n jdi tutor kt sini, so nty bilik kt bangunan bru tu utk kamulah, ada kosong byk ni, tgh tunggu kamu je...haaaaa   ('0')   mulut kami sume hahahahaaa....


InsyaAllah klu ada rezeki kami, kita bisa menjadi perancang y terbaek tp Allah lgi...lgiii terbaik dlm menentukan segala2nya...ya Allah murahknlah rezekiku, keluargaku, sahabat handaiku, amiiinn ya rabbal alamiinn...